The Confidence to Let Go of the Past and Our Suffering

Hi everybody, sorry for the late update of my blog..haha~~doesn't have idea to write..and here it is..

Every single one of us on this planet suffers in some way. Doesn’t matter if you’re rich or poor, male or female, white or black. As my friend tells me, “it’s part of our contract in being born. We have to suffer.” Some people seem to experience much greater personal tragedies than others but we all have painful issues we have to live through. Right?? It is part of life on this planet.

Suffering can happen in thousands of different ways and whether it takes place in the form of abuse (physical or mental), people cheating on us, loved ones dying on us, parents not loving us enough, car accidents or even losing our jobs, it doesn’t really matter in that we’re all affected by it at some point or at many points during our lives. Suffering is whatever causes us great emotional upheaval and we all have to go through it.

The difference is how we deal with our suffering and whether we're able to move on to emotional healing. We can deal with our pain or we can let it slowly destroy us. An important part of gaining confidence is to “let go” of our suffering and have the courage to move on and be the whole person we know we can be.

You are the only one who has the power to let the past go and to move on with your life. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says or does, only you have the power to take control of your life. It is incredibly empowering when you get to the stage when the past does not control your future anymore. You are relieved of your burden of anger freeing you from your previous self destructive behaviour. You may find at this point that you are able to help others who are going through the exact same thing you did. You have gotten your life back!!! You are liberated from the past and you are finally truly free. You have gained unbelievable confidence in yourself and the world around you. You have moved beyond suffering. It is one of the greatest lessons we can learn during our lifetime.

That's all from me..have a nice day..bye!! =)

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Blog Berwajah Baru...

Hi...

just a short entry...nak gtau sy dah tukar wajah blog sy...dengan tema taman dan rama-rama..hihi..takde kerja kan..hik3..sy suka bt benda mcm ni... that's all...hope you like it!!!

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Happy Birthday to Abah

Selamat Hari Lahir yg ke-47 buat abah tersayang, Mohd Ridzuan Jamil Raj B Abdullah...semoga panjang umur murah rezeki...kakak sayang abah...I love you so much...you're the best father in the world!!!!
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Selamat Hari Guru

Assalamualaikum...

Sekarang sy dah ada kat rumah...hihi..bru semalam smpi...byk benda nak dicerita ngan family..tak berhenti bercakap..hahaha...lepas rindu kot..hihi

Sy nak ucapkan Selamat hari Guru kpd semua guru2 yg pernah mengajar sy di:-

1. Tadika St. Patrick Tawau
2. SRK. ST Patrick Tawau
3. SMK Konven St Ursula Tawau
4. Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan
5. Universiti Malaysia Sarawak

Jasa anda semua tak dapat sy lupakan...tanpa guru2 semua sy tak akan smpi menjejakkan kaki ke menara gading...syukur alhamdulillah...

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Cuti!!! hahaha~~

Agak lama jgk tak update blog ni kan..hehe...yelah..busy dgn exam la katakan..haha..sebelum tu sy nak ucapkan SELAMAT HARI IBU kepada semua wanita yg bergelar ibu...terutama kpd ibu sy yg tersayang, Sariah...kakak sayang ibu...rindu nak jumpa...pengorbanan mu tak dapat dibalas dgn wang ringgit... sampai bila2 pun jasamu akan ku kenang...hanya doa dari anakmu yg dpt ku titipkan buatmu, ibuku...I love you so much!!!! You’re irreplaceable....

Pejam celik pejam celik, exam pun dah habis!!! Yeay!!!! Skrg ni tiba masa nak balik SABAH!!! Hmmm...agak lama jgk cuti kali ni...4 bulan!!! Bukan 4 minggu...hik3...best ke tak??? Rasanya best, tp mungkin jgk tak best..yg best nye dpt jumpa ngan family...rindu sgt!! Huhuhu...rindu rumah...rindu bilik...mcm2 lg lah...haha..yg tak bestnye, yelah kan cuti lama sgt tu...haish...duk rumah tanam anggur la jwbnye ye...hahahahahah!!~~

Hmmm...tak sangka kan sy dah hbs pengajian tahun 1...next sem dah masuk tahun 2...then tahun 3...so ada dua tahun lg sblm nak tamat pengajian..dlm masa setahun ni..mcm2 yg sy belajar..bukan saja akedemik, tp belajar mengenali diri sendiri...dan belajar hidup di tempat org...mcm2 ragam kawan yg sy jumpa...seriously, kwn2 kat cni mmg tak sama mcm kat matrik...sy pun tak tau knp...ada yg kwn makan kwn..hanya tau nak amik kesempatan kat kita je...sy paling tak suka org yg suka amik kesempatan atas kebaikan kita...bab assignment pulak...ini pun bt sy stress jgk...bila assignment bertimbun, mulalah sy fikir bukan2...”adui, bley siapkah semua ni???”...sbb inilah pengalaman pertama kali diberi assignment yg byk....dan assignment yg paling sy tak suka bila assignment dlm group...sbnrnya dlm group lg bgs klu nak dibandingkan dgn individual, tp masalahnya ahli group tu sendiri...ada yg buat, ada yg tak..pening kepala..ada stu assignment hari tu, sy buat dgn kwn sy..tp akhirnya semua isi dlm tu, sy yg buat...apa lah gunanya bt dlm group...huhu..mmg mencabar laa...nak marah org tp tak reti...sbb sy ni tak pandai nak marah org...suka pendam atau cite dgn org yg sy rapat...tp sy tak kn ckp dgn org yg buat masalah tu...tp akhirnya, sy berjaya jgk siapkan assignment yg melambak tu...apa yg penting, kita kena sabar dan jgn buang masa klu ada free time..kerja lebih penting...

Okey...tak tau nak cite apa lagi..that’s all from me...skrg dah kat Kota Kinabalu di rumah Zahra...hehe..bye, assalamualaikum =)
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My Vision Board

Assalamualaikum n Hi semua...hihi

Gambar kat atas tu adalah vision board yg sy bt sendiri...dlm vision board tu, apa2 impian yg sy nak sy letak kat situ...sebagai pembakar semangat utk sy dapatkan apa yg sy nak...hehehe...

Impian sy yg pertama, sy nak bawa family sy pg menunaikan haji dan umrah...mesti best kan klu dpt pg dgn family sama2..hihi..sy nak pakai duit sy sendiri...impian yg kedua, sy nak buka Botanical Garden dan Butterfly Park sy sendiri....hahaha~~besar gilak impian tu...hehe...maklumlah, bakal botanist kan..InsyaAllah...sy suka sgt dgn taman...klu diberi pilihan nak hilangkan stress antara pg ke taman atau shopping, mesti ramai yg pilih shopping kan??? Tp sy tak...sy lebih pilih utk pg ke taman...kat situ la segala stress sy akan hilang...klu shopping bt habis duit jerr...klu pg taman, takda pun entrance fee...free jerr...sejujurnya, sy tak minat shopping...ntah kenapa..biasanya org pompuan ni kaki shopping..tp sy tak suka...klu jln2 shopping ngan family pun, suka window shopping...klu ibu dah suruh beli, bru la beli itu pun setelah dipaksa..hahaha~sbb sy akan ckp, “tak pyh la bli..masih ada lg...okey lg bah tu...” hahaha~~itulah sy...yg tak minat shopping...hehe..klu pg ke taman lebih tenang, takda org lain nak ggu..hehe...that’s why sy lebih pilih ke taman berbanding pg shopping. Itulah sbbnya sy nak ada taman sendiri...bley pg hari2..butterfly park pun klu dpt kan best...sbb sy suka butterfly..hehe..sy dah pasang angan2 nak bt majlis perkahwinan sy kat taman yg sy sendiri...tak pyh la tempah hotel mahal2...kan?? just imagine, kita kahwin kat taman yg ada byk butterfly yg warna warni..wahhhhhh~~alangkah bahagianya hidup sy....hehe..tp.......sapa Mr.Right tu yer??? Hahaha~~(p/s: kpd bakal Mr.Right sy...nnt klu kita kahwin, kita bt buat kat taman sy ea...tak pyh susah2 cari tempat nak bt majlis kahwin...hahaha~~best tau kahwin kat taman ni...hirup udara yg segar...tak la pening pihak lelaki nak cri tempat...majlis kahwin bertemakan alam sekitar...rasanya, belum penah lg sy nmpk org bt majlis kahwin kat taman yg indah...klu ada pun, bilangannya sikit je...ok my Mr.Right??ok? ok? ok? hehe..berangan lebih ni...)okey, that’s enough..hahaha...impian sy yg ke-empat, nak rumah banglo besar..warna brown!!! Hahahaha~~nak rumah element kayu...tak nak batu...sy suka warna coklat...klu blh semua barang pun nak coklat...hahaha~~bley buat rumah daripada chocolates???hahaha...mesti cair lepas tu kan...dah la skrg ni global warming...tak tahan la rumah tu...haish merepek jerr....okey..dan impian sy yg terakhir, sy nak bawa satu family sy travelling the whole world!!!klu bley nak pg semua tempat di dunia ni...klu pg sorg2, tak best, klu ada family bley luangkan masa b’sama2..hihi =) yg betul2 sy nak pg ialah Kew Garden dkt United Kingdom...tu salah satu ex-situ conservation yg terkenal tau...tau tak ex-situ tu apa?? Hihi...ex-situ maknanya, sbg contoh Kew Garden tu, tumbuh-tumbuhan unik yg ditanam kat situ semua dibawa drpd luar,mksdnya dr negara lain atau dr tempat lain...then ditanam dlm satu tempat...ianya adalah tempat pemeliharan...betul ke??betul la tu....hehe...klu nak tau lebih lanjut, tekan la gmbr kat bwh tu ea...aaaaaa~~sy nak sgt pg situ...mesti cantik kan???hmmm...dah la...merepek panjang sangat dah ni..kahkahkah...tp tak mustahil kan impian boleh bertukar menjadi kenyataan...

Kew Garden, UK

For more information please click the picture above =)

So, korg dah tgk kan impian2 sy...impian tinggi menggunung...hahaha...tp sebenarnya itu sbg pembakar semangat spy belajar rajin2 klu nak semua tu...sy cadangkan korg pun buatlah vision board mcm yg sy buat tu...pastu jadikan la gambar tu sbg wallpaper utk dekstop...sy yakin, majoriti student skrg ni ada laptop..maklumlah zaman SCREENAGER’S...haha, klu dlu TEENAGER’S, skrg SCREENAGER’S...sbb remaja skrg semua pun pki screen...laptop, handphone, iPad, mp3...kan? kan? kan? tu lah generasi screenager’s...hahaha~~jadi klu student ni tak sah kalau sehari tak buka laptop...so, bila buka laptop mesti nmpk vision board kita tiap hari..bila tiap2 hari nmpk, kita akan berfikir, mcm mana nak dptkan benda tu...best tau bt benda ni....sy suka sgt..walaupun yg sy buat tu tak la cantik sgt..hee..

that’s all from me..happy2 always =)

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Goodluck For Our Final Exam!!!

Hai readers!!!!

hmmmm...pejam celik, pejam celik...minggu kuliah da habis..bila kuliah dah habis maknanya exam fever menyerang!!! exam is just around the corner....cepat betul masa berlalu kan...tak sangka dah habis setahun pengajian dkt U ni...dulu bukan main lg ckp, cepatlah hbs...haha..study pun start lg nih!! haih~~asyik dgn assignment yg melambak tu...tp alhamdulillah~~siap jgk semuanya...hihihi...so from now on, kena fokus study plak ni...exam tgl 25 April ni...hahahaha~~




Dekat2 exam ni la bru student kelam kabut nak study...biasalah tu study last minit...majoriti student mcm tu...hahaha~~sy pun!!! hahahaha~~klu study last minit, jd la mcm gmbr kat atas tu...tenung je buku tu....masuk ke tak tu tak tau la...haha..kan? kan? kan? mcm tu la student zaman sekarang.....



Utk semua kawan2, tak kira di mana anda berada...wish all of you the best of luck!!! May your result out with flying colours~~hehe...gunakanlah masa study week tu sebaik-baiknya utk study, bukan pg shopping ker, apa ker...ye...jgn stress2 tau...bye!! =)
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Sahabat Sejatiku Selama-lamanya

http://sudirman1809.blogspot.com

Assalamualaikum semua...

Post hari ni sbnrnya nak join contest tentang BBF...klu korg nak join, tekan la link kat banner tu ya...sy join bukan sbb nak hadiah, tp saje nak kongsi cerita pasal sahabat sejati sy...hihihi...klu menang tu rezeki la, klu tak bkn rezeki la tu...hehe..

My BFF's

Inilah dua org sahabat sejati saya...yg berbaju biru, Cik Oren atau nama sebenarnya Norhazleen Johansah...napa oren??? sbb dia suka warna oren la..hahaha...majoriti barang dia semua oren...yg ditengah2 tu, Cik Ipah, atau nama sebenarnya Sharifah Nur Hazimah Wan Mohamad...dan...yg disebelahnya tu saya!!! Siti Zalikha Mohd Ridzuan atau lebih mesra dipanggil Cik Ikha..hehe...inilah ceritera kami.....

17 Mei 2009...bermulanya kisah tiga org sahabat di Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan(KML)....sy dah kenal Oren dr form one lg...kmi berdua satu kelas dr form one smpi la form five...tp jodoh berpanjangan, kmi bertemu balik di KML tercinta...satu bilik lg tu...hehehe...mulanya mmg kami berdua saja yg menginap di bilik tu...then tgl 17 Mei, dtg la Ipah...mula2 jumpa terus rapat...mcm belangkas smpi tak bley dipisahkan...haha~~ada chemistry kot antara kami bertiga...sy ni susah nak rapat klu bru pertama kali berkenalan...tp Ipah ni lain ckit...ktorg mmg terus rapat...pg mana2 mesti bertiga...makan ke, jalan2 ke, mandi ke...oooppppsssss!!! hahaha~~bukan mandi sesame yerrr...angkat air sama2...hihi...maklumlah KML tu sentiasa takda air...so ktorg kena angkat air hari2...hahaha...

Tapi cik Ipah kejap je ngan ktorg...dlm dua bulan lebih je...sangat sekejap...huhu...dia dpt tawaran ke maktab perguruan kampus Keningau....nak jd cikgu maths la katakan..hehe...walaupun kejap, tp byk kenangan manis, pahit yg ktorg lalui...semua tu tinggal kenangan...lepas hbs matrik...masing2 ikut haluan sendiri...sy dpt tawaran ke Unversiti Malaysia Sarawak dlm bidang plant resource science and mangement...bakal botanist!!! InsyaAllah...dan cik Oren pulak dpt tawaran ke Universiti Malaysia Sabah dlm bidang pendidikan sains major kimia minor biologi...cikgu jgk...mereka berdua jd cikgu, sy je jd botanist...hehehe...walaupun ktorg berjauhan, tp masih lg dekat di hati...ktorg saling berhubung walaupun jauh...ada facebook, YM, Skype n...yg paling penting handphone kan ada.....takda alasan tak bley berhubung kan...klu ada apa2 masalah, sy tetap cri mereka berdua...sy lebih suka cerita dgn dorg dari cerita ngan kwn2 yg ada dekat ngan sy...sbb hanya mereka yg faham sy n begitu jgk la sebaliknya....hehehe....apa2 pun harap persahabatan yg kami bina ni kekal hingga ke akhir hayat, walaupun berjauhan...jika ada umur yg panjang, insyaAllah kami akan berjumpa lg seperti dulu...CIK IKHA SAYANG CIK IPAH & CIK OREN...I LOVE BOTH OF YOU SO MUCH!!!! BOTH OF YOU ARE IRREPLACEABLE...

hebatlah posing...haha

kanak2 riang at times squre...hahaha~~

orennn~~

duuh~~mkn n minum smbil berjalan..kih3..

yummy!!!

~emmmm...sedapnyer~

cincin sebagai tanda persahabatan...jgn ingat couple je ada cincin...ktorg pun ada jgk tau~~

ni video yg sy buat utk sahabat sy...hehehe

Andai suatu hari nanti kita dipisahkan...

Redhakanlah perpisahan ini...

Sesungguhnya tiada yang hilang antara kita...

Kerana persahabatan ini kekal abadi...

Andai jika kau sakit teman..

Tutuplah matamu dan

Tersenyumlah dengan kenangan yang pernah kita bina...

Andai kau sejuk sayang...

Pejamkanlah matamu...

Bayangkanlah dalam pelukanku...

Andai kau rindu sahabat...

Lenalah dikau...

Kita akan berjumpa dalam mimpi...

Maafkanku jika pernah menyakitimu....

Maafkanku jika pernah membuatmu sangsi...

Maafkanku jika pernah membuatmu bosan...

Maafkanku jika tak mampu untuk mendamaikan hatimu...

Aku ikhlas sayang kamu teman.......

**hmmm...itu je la kot yg sy bley kongsikan dgn anda semua....klu nak lg, mmg byk...tp mesti nnt korg bosan plak baca kan...hehe**

that's all~~thank you!!!

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Happy Hours (^_^)

Assalamualaikum semua....

Just a short entry...hihihi...2 April yg lalu, sy dan kawan2 jalan2 pg ke bandar Kuching...ktorg pg beramai-ramai...semua pun kwn2 ex KML...hihi...dah ada org ajak pg jak la kan...hehe..ktorg pg DUN, Muzium Negeri Sarawak, Akuarium, waterfront Kuching, Boulevard(p mkn jerrr...hahaha) ...mmg seronok la...dr pg smpi malam....mcm2 ragam kawan2 ku semua...hahaha~~saya, pilah, c-keen, acim, wak,ikwan, del, ika, irwin, allysha n fida....we have a great time together...

Acim bt apa tu???? hahaha

Ikwan padah ngan sapa tek???hahaha

Model Of The Year

beraninyerrr~~hahahaha

peace ^_*V

Akuarium....

Area waterfront...DUN Sarawak...

tiga jejeka macho...(macho kerr???) irwin, acim n wak...

This is the most memorable memories that we have spend time together for this end of first year as a student in UNIMAS...lepas cuti semester ni nnt, bermula kehidupan yg baru sbg senior student...hihihi....that's all from me...smile always =)

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Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

by: Celine Dion

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